Just ate a steam bag of birds eye veggies today. Brocolli, peas and carrots. I had no idea apple sauce was fat free so im glad I read the label. My weight loss just stopped after eating crap and now its going down like 0.2lbs per day. It's not enough for me :( I'm hoping that once my bodys used up the glycogen from all those icky carbs the fat will start dissapearing again. It should have happened by now but I dont expect much from my body these days.
I hate the days following a binge, where your stomach completely changes shape and takes a couple of days to go back in. I actually dreamt of mcdonalds. Fkn ridiculous, how gross is that!? I've just been tearful and angry with myself non stop. Sometimes it feels like it's just as hard to hide the emotional side of this. It's pretty much all I have now.
But apart from my emotional state, I guess I'm doing ok. I have been working out like crazy and I have alot of water anyway because I carry a bottle everywhere. I just want someone to get inside my head, take a look around and tell me what they think. Its so frustrating to think that no one can ever see my world, my reality.
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